Soup of the day.

Salam. Petang.

Cerita dia, aku tak tahu nak letak tajuk ape dekat tajuk. Aku pandang semangkuk mushroom soup kat sebelah aku yang selow bebenau aku nak habiskan nie. Memula aku nak letak mushroom soup, lepas tu nak taip mushroom soup of the day, tapi bunyi tak sedap langsung, jadilah tajuk sekarang nie.

Kenapa selowwww sangat nak habiskan soup yang selalu sepantas kilat ak licinkan nie? Jawapannya, sebab soup terlekat di tekak, taknak masuk. Perasaan nie selalu datang bila? Bila kau sebenarnya sedang berada dalam situasi paling awkward tak tahu nak cakap. Sekian.

Kenapa kau rasa awkward? Selain daripada awkward sebab kau sedang duduk makan dengan seseorang yang pertama kali kau bertemu, awkward jugak boleh terjadi bilamana kau berjumpa dengan seseorang yang pernah kau sayang, atau dia pernah sayang kau. Deep sangat tu. Deep yang makan deep sendiri tu. Rolling in a deep shit namanya nie.

Apa yang perlu dilakukan untuk menghilangkan rasa awkward ini?

Pertama, jangan tunjuk sangat kau punya awkward tu. Serious. Sebenarnya aku rasa bukan kau sorang je awkward, dia pun awkward jugak kot. Kecuali lah dia memang totally move on, boleh buat macam kau nie just another piece of shit dalam hidup dia, mungkinlah takde langsung awkward tu. Nampak tak game aku nak menyakitkan hati orang? Aku yakin most of us pernah rasa benda nie. HAHAHAGHAMJADAH!

Kedua. Kau buat cool walaupun kau tak cool. Buat cool nie pun ada banyak jugak cara. Satu, buat macam kau memang tak kenal dia. Dia pun akan buat macam tak kenal kau. Tapi nampak bodoh lah sebab aku yakin orang sekeliling tahu korang kenal each other. Sakit hati pun ye jugak. Aku tak berapa sokong cara nie. Atau, kau buat je macam biasa. Ini kau, hati kau tak sakit, hati dia pun tak sakit. Kau pun bukannya terus bercinta kan? Memula dulu pun kawan biasa kan? Just return to that phase. Iye. Aku faham. Takkan same. Die takkan berulang balik sampai korang bercinta semula, tapi at least takdelah kau atau dia hilang each other like forever. Berlakon pun takpe kalau belum boleh betul betul ikhlas. Okay?

Ketiganya. Bila kau rasa macam cannot go sangat. Pergi terjun bangunan je. Hek eleh sangatlah kau nie. Bukannya dunia berakhir pun. Jumpa dengan ex je kot. Apadahal? JAHAHAHAHAHAHANAM kan?!! Serious la nie. Takde pape lah. Kecuali kalau mulut masing masing kata move on tapi hati tak. Kan sayang? Opsy doody do :)

Semua orang akan melalui fasa yang sama. Semua orang. Kecuali dipisahkan oleh mati. Mintak dijauhkan. Iye, betul, mulut aku kata move on tapi hati aku? Jeng jeng jeng. Tak siapa yang tahu. HAHAHAHAHAKTUIH.

XOXO
Goodnight people :)

Berlagu.

Sendu tangisan aku.
Cuma aku yang faham.
Dalamnya.

Sendu tangisan aku.
Berlagu.
Liriknya kau cipta indah.

Tangisan aku.
Perlahan membasuh emosi.
Mencuci hitam perasaan ini.

Tangisan aku.
Bukan menagih simpati.
Aku mahu didengari.

Aku.
Sendiri mencari rezeki.
Bukan jual diri untuk nasi.

Aku.
Masih mampu berdiri.
Tersenyum dalam sendu.

Semoga jerih payah aku juga kau hargai. Semoga apa yang aku lakukan kau sedari. Ini semua bukan cuma untuk diri sendiri.

Tears.

Assalamualaikum wbt.

Good morning peeps! How are you guys doing? Well, its a beautiful morning isn't it? I wish you guys have a very great day plus productive day too! Mine? I had just sent off mother and brothers to school. Morning routine.

What's about tears that I'm gonna brag today?

Why is it tears become synonim with girls, ladies and women? Women easily cried over something. Either they are happy or sad, tears overflowing. Am I right? Naaaa naaaa! Its a true true. No denial please? Haha.

Me myself been crying a lot nowadays. Because of this thing called love? Tipical woman I am. I know. Damn tiring but cannot stop doing that everynight. Pfffft!

There's a saying said that tears are women's best weapon. Yes? No? Haha. Just because guys are moved when they see women cry, doesn't mean we can cry every time. However, this saying does not goes perfectly with my boyfriend. No matter how much I cried, he just don't give a damn. Damn! Haha. I've been sleeping with a box of tissues everynight now. And been wake up with swollen eyes. Grrrr.

Sometimes, we cried over something that is just not worth it. In the end, we realized we've been wasting our tears for people who never care. Surprisingly, eventhough we realized how much they don't care and how much it is not worth it, we still cried like tomorrow is dying. Bla bla bla. Cry. Yda yda yda. Cry. As if we live to cry. Blergh but yeah, the ugly truth.

Been there, done that.

Tears. By crying actually, we released our sadness. Well most of the time, people cry because they are sad. So yes, no matter how hard we try not to cry, we end up crying harder than we ever know. Some people will ask us to stop crying and some will ask you to cry to feel relieves. Honestly, tears really wash away your sadness, for at least 24hours before you actually start crying again. Haha.

Some people cry anywhere, anytime they feel like crying. I'm one of them. I used to received a bad news at a mall, and I cried over there. Tears can't wait! Seriously. Some choose to cry when they are alone. OMG! They are so strong. You know how hard it is to pretend you're not sad and you don't want to cry? Its hard and I don't even dare to do that. Haha. I'm lame liddat :p

Well, tears are women best friend. Deny me! Heh. However, I do not recommend you to make crying as a habit. Well, if you know what I mean. I know you don't know what I mean but nevermind, ignore it!

P/s to mr boyfriend again: Are you happy knowing I've been aging for crying a lot so that we can be together because I look older than my age. Pfffft. Iloveyou and imissyou. SO MUCH!

Love, XOXO

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