Friday, December 27, 2013
Honestly!
Wednesday, November 6, 2013
Pening.
Thursday, September 19, 2013
Definisi berbeza.
Monday, July 29, 2013
Satu perangai!
Thursday, July 18, 2013
Bahagia milik semua.
Tuesday, July 9, 2013
Ramadhan.
Sunday, June 2, 2013
Peluang kedua.
Saturday, June 1, 2013
Ranap.
Tuesday, May 28, 2013
Up and down.
Well, hello strong heart, gorgeous ladies, psychotic lover, 'ketang' man, and eberibadeh!
lol.
sebelum apa apa, lemme tell you something. i'm FFFFFF rindu nak menulis. menaip actually but who cares. hahaha. dah tak serajin dulu nak update everyday, everyweek, not even everymonth. i have no idea what the hell is happening with me, but jyeah, i'm writing now so okayy. haha.
bercinta.
bila bercinta, kita terbang melayang tinggi ke langit. bila bercinta, sakit terhempas montot atas tanah pun ada. so, there's always up and down dalam bercinta atau;
mengejar cinta.
berbalas. alhamdulillah. jaga. setia.
tak berbalas. usaha. berdoa. berserah. teruskan perjalanan dan bukan berhenti menangis tepi jalan.
keyword dia; sabar. bukan hanya tahu menyambar!
aku? alhamdulillah. bahagia. aku jaga. aku setia. until proven that i'm not. lol.
kau? aku tak tahu.
mungkin kau dah bertemu yang lagi separuh dan kau sedang bahagia seperti aku. atau mungkin sedang merajuk dengar lagu air mata meleleh bertalu talu.
mungkin kau masih menanti dia dari masa lalu datang bertamu. sedangkan dia sedang berbahagia dengan orang lain yang takkan pernah mungkin mengingatkan dia tentang kau.
mungkin kau sedang menangis. ditolak cintahati yang kau terlalu yakin kau akan miliki. atau mungkin kau sedang derita, dipaksa menerima cinta yang kau tak boleh hidup dengannya.
mungkin.
setiap apa pun. setiap bahagia kita, setiap derita, setiap bangun dan jatuh, setiap ketawa kita, setiap titisan airmata, takkan ada tanpa izin-Nya.
iya. setiap satunya.
jadi kenapa takut untuk jatuh bila kau tinggi di awan? kenapa takut untuk berdiri saat lemahnya tak terlawan? rasa itu menjadikan siapa kita.
terima apa adanya.
jatuh itu. bangun itu.
"feel the rejection. don't hate it even though its hateful.
because rejection is a down. that might pull you up."
selamat bertemu kasih. selamat tinggal sayang.
Wednesday, May 1, 2013
Langit.
Langit itu indah. Langit itu luas.
Langit itu cinta aku untuk kau.
Sent from my iPhone
Monday, April 1, 2013
#TolakPR #ManifestoBukanJanji : No heart feeling please?
XOXO
Good morning people :)
Sunday, March 31, 2013
Soup of the day.
Cerita dia, aku tak tahu nak letak tajuk ape dekat tajuk. Aku pandang semangkuk mushroom soup kat sebelah aku yang selow bebenau aku nak habiskan nie. Memula aku nak letak mushroom soup, lepas tu nak taip mushroom soup of the day, tapi bunyi tak sedap langsung, jadilah tajuk sekarang nie.
Kenapa selowwww sangat nak habiskan soup yang selalu sepantas kilat ak licinkan nie? Jawapannya, sebab soup terlekat di tekak, taknak masuk. Perasaan nie selalu datang bila? Bila kau sebenarnya sedang berada dalam situasi paling awkward tak tahu nak cakap. Sekian.
Kenapa kau rasa awkward? Selain daripada awkward sebab kau sedang duduk makan dengan seseorang yang pertama kali kau bertemu, awkward jugak boleh terjadi bilamana kau berjumpa dengan seseorang yang pernah kau sayang, atau dia pernah sayang kau. Deep sangat tu. Deep yang makan deep sendiri tu. Rolling in a deep shit namanya nie.
Apa yang perlu dilakukan untuk menghilangkan rasa awkward ini?
Pertama, jangan tunjuk sangat kau punya awkward tu. Serious. Sebenarnya aku rasa bukan kau sorang je awkward, dia pun awkward jugak kot. Kecuali lah dia memang totally move on, boleh buat macam kau nie just another piece of shit dalam hidup dia, mungkinlah takde langsung awkward tu. Nampak tak game aku nak menyakitkan hati orang? Aku yakin most of us pernah rasa benda nie. HAHAHAGHAMJADAH!
Kedua. Kau buat cool walaupun kau tak cool. Buat cool nie pun ada banyak jugak cara. Satu, buat macam kau memang tak kenal dia. Dia pun akan buat macam tak kenal kau. Tapi nampak bodoh lah sebab aku yakin orang sekeliling tahu korang kenal each other. Sakit hati pun ye jugak. Aku tak berapa sokong cara nie. Atau, kau buat je macam biasa. Ini kau, hati kau tak sakit, hati dia pun tak sakit. Kau pun bukannya terus bercinta kan? Memula dulu pun kawan biasa kan? Just return to that phase. Iye. Aku faham. Takkan same. Die takkan berulang balik sampai korang bercinta semula, tapi at least takdelah kau atau dia hilang each other like forever. Berlakon pun takpe kalau belum boleh betul betul ikhlas. Okay?
Ketiganya. Bila kau rasa macam cannot go sangat. Pergi terjun bangunan je. Hek eleh sangatlah kau nie. Bukannya dunia berakhir pun. Jumpa dengan ex je kot. Apadahal? JAHAHAHAHAHAHANAM kan?!! Serious la nie. Takde pape lah. Kecuali kalau mulut masing masing kata move on tapi hati tak. Kan sayang? Opsy doody do :)
Semua orang akan melalui fasa yang sama. Semua orang. Kecuali dipisahkan oleh mati. Mintak dijauhkan. Iye, betul, mulut aku kata move on tapi hati aku? Jeng jeng jeng. Tak siapa yang tahu. HAHAHAHAHAKTUIH.
XOXO
Goodnight people :)
Tuesday, March 26, 2013
Berlagu.
Cuma aku yang faham.
Dalamnya.
Sendu tangisan aku.
Berlagu.
Liriknya kau cipta indah.
Tangisan aku.
Perlahan membasuh emosi.
Mencuci hitam perasaan ini.
Tangisan aku.
Bukan menagih simpati.
Aku mahu didengari.
Aku.
Sendiri mencari rezeki.
Bukan jual diri untuk nasi.
Aku.
Masih mampu berdiri.
Tersenyum dalam sendu.
Semoga jerih payah aku juga kau hargai. Semoga apa yang aku lakukan kau sedari. Ini semua bukan cuma untuk diri sendiri.
Tuesday, January 8, 2013
Tears.
Good morning peeps! How are you guys doing? Well, its a beautiful morning isn't it? I wish you guys have a very great day plus productive day too! Mine? I had just sent off mother and brothers to school. Morning routine.
What's about tears that I'm gonna brag today?
Why is it tears become synonim with girls, ladies and women? Women easily cried over something. Either they are happy or sad, tears overflowing. Am I right? Naaaa naaaa! Its a true true. No denial please? Haha.
Me myself been crying a lot nowadays. Because of this thing called love? Tipical woman I am. I know. Damn tiring but cannot stop doing that everynight. Pfffft!
There's a saying said that tears are women's best weapon. Yes? No? Haha. Just because guys are moved when they see women cry, doesn't mean we can cry every time. However, this saying does not goes perfectly with my boyfriend. No matter how much I cried, he just don't give a damn. Damn! Haha. I've been sleeping with a box of tissues everynight now. And been wake up with swollen eyes. Grrrr.
Sometimes, we cried over something that is just not worth it. In the end, we realized we've been wasting our tears for people who never care. Surprisingly, eventhough we realized how much they don't care and how much it is not worth it, we still cried like tomorrow is dying. Bla bla bla. Cry. Yda yda yda. Cry. As if we live to cry. Blergh but yeah, the ugly truth.
Been there, done that.
Tears. By crying actually, we released our sadness. Well most of the time, people cry because they are sad. So yes, no matter how hard we try not to cry, we end up crying harder than we ever know. Some people will ask us to stop crying and some will ask you to cry to feel relieves. Honestly, tears really wash away your sadness, for at least 24hours before you actually start crying again. Haha.
Some people cry anywhere, anytime they feel like crying. I'm one of them. I used to received a bad news at a mall, and I cried over there. Tears can't wait! Seriously. Some choose to cry when they are alone. OMG! They are so strong. You know how hard it is to pretend you're not sad and you don't want to cry? Its hard and I don't even dare to do that. Haha. I'm lame liddat :p
Well, tears are women best friend. Deny me! Heh. However, I do not recommend you to make crying as a habit. Well, if you know what I mean. I know you don't know what I mean but nevermind, ignore it!
P/s to mr boyfriend again: Are you happy knowing I've been aging for crying a lot so that we can be together because I look older than my age. Pfffft. Iloveyou and imissyou. SO MUCH!
Love, XOXO
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Saturday, January 5, 2013
2013.
Well hello peeps! New year it is. Yayyy. How do you celebrate it? Partyy? Free foods? Firecrackers? Mine is obviously not that good. Because I can't really see whats coming with this new year. I bet everything will just remain the same. Jobless. Lifeless. Moneyless. Edu-less.
2012 was not being good to me. So I should not talk about it anymore. Pfffttt.
To be not jobless, I applied for some job already. Honestly, never cross my mind that I will one day apply for that kind of job. It is not the right time to choose as I live with this wisdom now, "Beggars can't be choosers." I may dress nicely, eat properly, but that doesn't mean I didn't beg to live. Only if you know what I mean. Heh.
Before 2013 actually come, I have a very positive thought about how would it be. Now that 2013 is here, I'm not sure anymore. 2013 can be nice, and not very nice too. It is too early to judge right? Ergh. Sucker!
No. I will stop bragging, blabbering, nagging (read: wasting my time blogging).
Do you see anything different? No? #godie. HAHAHA. I am a mom to my siblings now. So gtg. Will brb soon. I think. Heh.
P/s to my boyfriend: I love you. And I miss you. Don't courier anything but you! I don't want anything but you. *singing I want nobody but you* Hikhik. Bimbo much? No? I feel stupid now. Bye!!
Love! XOXO