Tears.

Assalamualaikum wbt.

Good morning peeps! How are you guys doing? Well, its a beautiful morning isn't it? I wish you guys have a very great day plus productive day too! Mine? I had just sent off mother and brothers to school. Morning routine.

What's about tears that I'm gonna brag today?

Why is it tears become synonim with girls, ladies and women? Women easily cried over something. Either they are happy or sad, tears overflowing. Am I right? Naaaa naaaa! Its a true true. No denial please? Haha.

Me myself been crying a lot nowadays. Because of this thing called love? Tipical woman I am. I know. Damn tiring but cannot stop doing that everynight. Pfffft!

There's a saying said that tears are women's best weapon. Yes? No? Haha. Just because guys are moved when they see women cry, doesn't mean we can cry every time. However, this saying does not goes perfectly with my boyfriend. No matter how much I cried, he just don't give a damn. Damn! Haha. I've been sleeping with a box of tissues everynight now. And been wake up with swollen eyes. Grrrr.

Sometimes, we cried over something that is just not worth it. In the end, we realized we've been wasting our tears for people who never care. Surprisingly, eventhough we realized how much they don't care and how much it is not worth it, we still cried like tomorrow is dying. Bla bla bla. Cry. Yda yda yda. Cry. As if we live to cry. Blergh but yeah, the ugly truth.

Been there, done that.

Tears. By crying actually, we released our sadness. Well most of the time, people cry because they are sad. So yes, no matter how hard we try not to cry, we end up crying harder than we ever know. Some people will ask us to stop crying and some will ask you to cry to feel relieves. Honestly, tears really wash away your sadness, for at least 24hours before you actually start crying again. Haha.

Some people cry anywhere, anytime they feel like crying. I'm one of them. I used to received a bad news at a mall, and I cried over there. Tears can't wait! Seriously. Some choose to cry when they are alone. OMG! They are so strong. You know how hard it is to pretend you're not sad and you don't want to cry? Its hard and I don't even dare to do that. Haha. I'm lame liddat :p

Well, tears are women best friend. Deny me! Heh. However, I do not recommend you to make crying as a habit. Well, if you know what I mean. I know you don't know what I mean but nevermind, ignore it!

P/s to mr boyfriend again: Are you happy knowing I've been aging for crying a lot so that we can be together because I look older than my age. Pfffft. Iloveyou and imissyou. SO MUCH!

Love, XOXO

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2013.

Assalamualaikum.

Well hello peeps! New year it is. Yayyy. How do you celebrate it? Partyy? Free foods? Firecrackers? Mine is obviously not that good. Because I can't really see whats coming with this new year. I bet everything will just remain the same. Jobless. Lifeless. Moneyless. Edu-less.

2012 was not being good to me. So I should not talk about it anymore. Pfffttt.

To be not jobless, I applied for some job already. Honestly, never cross my mind that I will one day apply for that kind of job. It is not the right time to choose as I live with this wisdom now, "Beggars can't be choosers." I may dress nicely, eat properly, but that doesn't mean I didn't beg to live. Only if you know what I mean. Heh.

Before 2013 actually come, I have a very positive thought about how would it be. Now that 2013 is here, I'm not sure anymore. 2013 can be nice, and not very nice too. It is too early to judge right? Ergh. Sucker!

No. I will stop bragging, blabbering, nagging (read: wasting my time blogging).

Do you see anything different? No? #godie. HAHAHA. I am a mom to my siblings now. So gtg. Will brb soon. I think. Heh.

P/s to my boyfriend: I love you. And I miss you. Don't courier anything but you! I don't want anything but you. *singing I want nobody but you* Hikhik. Bimbo much? No? I feel stupid now. Bye!!

Love! XOXO

Sampai bila?

Gagal bukan satu pilihan. Mungkin aku yang memilih untuk gagal.
Tapi sampai bila aku nak biarkan diri aku terus gagal?
Sampai bila?

Aku ada jawapannya dan yang pasti bukan selama-lamanya aku nak biarkan kegagalan mendampingi aku.
Aku gagal dan bukan bererti aku memilih untuk terus gagal.
Aku ada hak untuk memilih jalan seterusnya bukan?

 Dan bila mana aku memilih jalan hidup aku.
Aku tahu, risiko untuk aku gagal lagi, tinggi. Aku tahu.
Tapi aku tetap perlu memilih, kerana ini hidup aku.

Hidup aku.

Aku tahu ramai yang peduli.
Aku tahu ramai yang ingin membantu.
Aku tahu semua orang ingin didengari.

Aku pun peduli dengan hidup aku.
Aku pun ingin membantu diri aku.
Aku juga ingin didengari.

Dengari aku, tolong?

Sampai bila aku harus terus mengikut arus?
Sampai bila aku harus terima aturan yang diatur?
Sampai bila aku harus menelan kata kata pahit itu?
Sampai bila?

Sampai bila lagi hidup ini ingin kau bentuk mengikut kata hati kau, ikut kemahuan kau?

Berikan aku apa yang kau patut beri.
Berikan perhatian dan kasih sayang.
Berikan doa dan bukan kata nista.
Itu lebih aku perlukan.

Terima kasih semua.
Doakan aku, sampai bila-bila :')